I found solace within myself this summer. I decided to take a much-needed break from all that was in my sphere. I am a classroom teacher who almost burned out this past school year. The energy in my classroom was full-on intense this past year, which coupled with my more empathic nature and extreme level of maintaining patience and understanding and compassion, I over-extended my energy levels and tanked; completely.
I stepped up many weeks to ask for the Universe to supply an endless stream of energy for me, but as soon as my guard was down, the daily energies of highly-engaged, full-of-life students pulled me back down at times. I could see many Indigo children in my classroom and saw them struggling to maintain their energy levels as well, which translated to a bouncy ball effect for them most days.
For those who have hit the wall of exhaustion, complete and utter exhaustion, you know my feelings. For anyone who has not felt it yet, there is a weight that just sits on your body that is so intense and consuming. It takes time to lift itself up and off; even with sleep and a healthier life style.
There is an energy that is there that must be cleared and moved away, which is attached to your own aura and body. It took me a month to get to feeling like my own self. I absorbed energies that were not mine and found them consuming and draining to my body. I ate more ice cream. I gained weight. My pants no longer fit. I felt horrible and tired.
I found solace within my own self this summer. I spent some time in a place that always gives me that quiet space to just release and let go. It is a safe place to rest and relax without any demands upon my mind, body, or soul.
I hiked. I sat. I read several books. I laid in the sun. I laughed. I observed. I loved. I released.
With this inner work taken care of and my body back to feeling like my own, I realize that I have no concern to take on others’ energies; from adults and children. I know that my intuition is heightened and aware of my surroundings. Yes, I do pick up the bullshit energies that are swirling around a person. I do choose to step back from those energies and give no power to them.
In order to not leave my career at the end of the year feeling as depleted as I did this past year, I must maintain a distance from those who do not always have the best energies. Some may think of me as stand-offish, which is so far from the truth, but I must keep that distance so as not to absorb energies that are not my own. When one’s energies are at peace, so are mine.